I began writing this post quite some time ago…
Here is an interesting perspective that I resonate with. It comes from Donald Miller, author of Blue Like Jazz.
“I saw this great interview on CNN with Tom Arnold, the comedian. He just wrote a book called, How I Lost 5 Pounds in 6 Years: An Autobiography. The interviewer asked him, ‘Why did you write this book?’ Arnold said—and my respect for him just went through the roof when I heard him say this—’The reason I wrote this book is because I am a broken person, and I do things to get people to love me.'”
I’m trying to remember what resonated with me so. I can’t. My life and experience is so different now than it was a year ago when I began this reflection. It’s amazing, really, how that works. You write something…you revisit it…you realize that things are different now…you reflect on if things are different positive or different negative.
As it pertains to this, I think it’s different positive. I don’t find myself “doing things to get people to love me” much anymore. Where as, once upon a time, that may have been the case, I feel that my expression of living now is much more of a response to Love than for love.
I spent a lot of time doing to get people to love me. Was that time well invested? Did I flourish or languish? My heart says I languished.