There have been just a couple of times in my life when I knew that I knew that something needed to change. The first time was when I was 19 and was living like someone whose fantasy of life was better than the Father’s. I remember, as I lay recovering from a rather serious illness, that something needed to change. That particular change resulted in my first steps in the Way of Jesus.
The second time was just a few weeks later when I was back at school for my sophomore year. I had spent an entire year pursuing a degree in music education and doing it quite successfully. I remember classes resuming and not retaining anything of the previous year’s education. What I was supposed to recollect was gone–as though I had never learned it. Something needed to change. That particular change resulted in a complete reorientation of my course of study.
The third time was after four years of working at a large church in Minnesota. While there, I experienced what “church” ministry was like. It was one of the most formational experiences of my short life as I began to discover how God had wired me. It was there that I realized that I am not a maintainer, but instead am most alive when I am out on the fringe somewhere, pushing the boundaries of what is possible. It was there that I realized that I was built to empower leaders, am fascinated with organizational and organic systems, and prefer to be with people who are flipping God and the church off. Something needed to change. That particular change resulted in my wife and I selling everything that we owned and heading across the country to a new world–literally.
The fourth time was after a life-altering experience in the tribal villages of northern Pakistan. I came home and began living in a world that I had set up for myself pre-Pakistan. It didn’t fit anymore–something needed to change. That particular change resulted in my resigning a safe position for a dangerous one.
Last week was the most outstanding educational experience of my life. It is still hard to put into words what I experienced, other than to say that reformation of some sort is dawning. There was a clarity–an affirmation. It was as though God were saying, “It’s time!” I wonder if this past week, for me, was the stuff of Destiny…
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